iuj classmates

my batchmates and friends: seated from left to right, meidy (indonesia), yulia (turkmenistan), eiei (standing - myanmar), trang (vietnam), pema (bhutan) and yours truly (philippines).

rainy days

i feel so sad and down today - i don't know why, it must be the effect of the gloomy weather! times like these make me reflect about my pathetic life. have i made the right choices? where am i going from here? is this all? i feel so empty, alone, depressed and confused that i want to cry my heart out. 'what is there beyond eat, sleep, work in this cruel life?' keeps on playing in my head. i have absolutely no clue what the future holds for me, and i am scared! don't get me wrong, it's not that i am ungrateful for the blessings and breaks that came my way. i know i am blessed... and i better keep on counting my blessings from this day on. and perhaps it's now time to really get serious with my life: re-assess my goals, evaluate my options, and most importantly, DO something about them. at this point, i could not afford to slack off as i used to do. i need to pull my acts together. it's now or never...

in other news, it has been ages since i last updated this blog. where did all my time go? oh yes, i went out on short trips as planned - singapore, malaysia, kansai region (osaka, kyoto and nara), and niigata (yuzawa and nagaoka). well, i guess my summer vacation was not really that bad after all. and i got to sleep (and eat that i have gained weight) as much as i wanted - no deadlines, no pressures! i would say my travels were so much fun, only that they made me so broke like never before. and i need to save a lot for my plane tickets this christmas and omiyages for the entire barangay. plus, i got to save as well for the rainy days to come. oh, life!